I’m continuing to wonder about what is happening in the situation. It is frustrating that the resolution hasn’t happened yet, but from what I can tell most people are positive toward me, and I think some people that appear on the surface to not be positive may actually be positive anyway. I’ve always assumed that influential people are behind my situation and many people everywhere seem to be cooperating.
I’ve pretty much never experienced any sort of hostility toward me, and in the few times that I have experienced some sort of negativity it has not been anything that is serious at all.
When I’m out and about, from my perspective it is as if I’m looking at the surface of a large lake that I know is full of fish, but only rarely do I see evidence of that, where only occasionally I may see a fin rise above the surface. And when I do see such a “fin” of a “wink wink nudge nudge,” such people are almost always positive towards me, however sometimes I wonder if in some of those cases of apparent positivity that they actually don’t necessarily feel positive toward me. Maybe it is a mixture of some of them genuinely feeling positive towards me and some of them not. In any event they seem to be “going against what influential people are asking people to do” when it comes to the situation.
Despite my never really experiencing any hostility, I do think there are dangers in my situation. I think there must be a lot of people out in the world who also are upset about the political problems that I’m identifying with my websites, where they are also frustrated that not enough is being done about those things since the resolution continues to not happen. So I think there theoretically could be some people who might see a benefit in harming me simply to finally get the ball rolling so something will be done about the problems that I’m identifying. But I think the fact that such a thing has not happened to me up until now is a testament to the influence of the people who are running the situation— where in the meantime most people out there seem to be glad that the word is getting out about such things due to my situation, and many are likely waiting for the resolution to happen where they seem to feel reassured that it is in fact going to happen.
But on the other hand, there must also be people who strongly dislike me, which I think can be broken down into additional categories:
1. People who genuinely believe that what I’m communicating is not accurate or not relevant. I believe that many people might initially think that way, but once they look into the information most of them change their mind. This again is likely a testament to people who are involved in the situation who likely are helping to clarify issues that many people might initially have problems understanding or accepting.
2. People who realize that my information is accurate but they believe that they would somehow be adversely effected by knowledge of that information becoming more widely known. I think it is often the case that such people would actually appreciate the information if they knew the bigger picture of the situations rather than only specific superficial facets of it, so here again I think it is a testament to people who are involved in the situation that are likely helping to clarify such issues to such potential people.
3. Some people likely simply just don’t like me no matter what I’m communicating. I’m sure that I can be annoyance to some people. It is a very strange situation.
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I have explained in the past that when I was younger I was somewhat “loutish” at times, often to the chagrin of people who I was around. When I was very young I had a speech impediment that made me think of myself as being somewhat of a loser or whatever, and thus I thought of myself as being rather inconsequential. Since I didn’t really respect myself much I sometimes didn’t respect others either. I could be rather insensitive and reckless, but on the other hand I wasn’t really that bad. For example I had a pellet gun and slingshots during all of my childhood yet I never shot at any animals, etc.. I did have a lot of good qualities also. I’m fine with identifying the fact that I was sometimes rather loutish, but it pains me that people might try to unfairly project that onto others who I have known as well. Almost all of the people that I was around were certainly not loutish at all. This is all a strange topic to talk about, but since my situation is so unique I think I should mention it.
I should also mention a disturbing fact that there are currently apparently some sort of stupid accusations in the situation of me being some sort of a “pedophile” or something. The reason why I think that is because of how various people including some people that I have never met before have been acting towards me recently. I definitely think that those people don’t actually think that I’m that way, but rather I think they are being “told” to make such suggestions so that I can address it. I’m now thinking that perhaps I should have addressed those things immediately here after it recently started happening, as I may have somehow been “expected” to do that.
Anyway, what has been happening recently with that is some people have been making use of children in situations where they are sent in front of me to presumably see how I will react. In one of the situations that was involving people that I never met the children actually even behaved in a ridiculously provocative way in front of me, with an adult being close that was making it clear that they were filming me with their phone! Of course there is certainly a danger in my situation of such a scenario being falsely “engineered” by people who don’t like me, but I think it is likely that it is not the real motivation of what has been happening recently, but rather I think those people have been trying to “help” me by warning me that there is such a danger of something like that happening, or perhaps to help prompt the resolution happening soon.
I remember that a few decades ago I made some dumb and crude jokes about that topic a few times, which I think might somehow be ultimately a foundation for the current supposed accusations. At that time I was more loutish and I was trying to be shocking simply for the sake of ridiculousness and absurdity in an informal environment.
Also I think the current behavior of the people that I have been mentioning stems from a situation that happened some years ago in Pennsylvania, which I never blogged about but I did mention it in correspondence at the time where I was under the assumption that what I was sending was somehow being broadcasted. (At the time I wasn’t actually directly blogging my thoughts like I do now.) Basically what happened was I was sitting in front of my house, and some kids were milling about across the street going back of forth riding scooters. Since it was happening right in my line of vision I was watching it, but then I noticed that someone very far in the distance in the park at the bottom of the hill was watching me and apparently filming himself while he was watching some sort of live video on his cellphone and recording himself responding to it, where I noticed that he would actually jump up and down and point and make exclamations whenever I moved my foot, apparently showing that he was trying to imply that my doing that meant that I was some sort of a pedophile or something. So obviously the kids milling back and forth in front of me were a part of that setup as well. I’m certain that he thought he was way too far away for me to notice him, and he also apparently thought that he was sufficiently concealed behind the branches of a tree that was in the way. It seems that those people were doing that with the intent of trying to harm me to neutralize the effectiveness of my communicating about such matters, due to the fact that I think everything that was happening around that time was a high visibility situation in general. What they were trying to do was incredibly petty, where obviously it was not done out of any genuine concern but rather it was apparently due to some sort of opportunistic vindictiveness that they thought they could get away with, most likely because I insulted one of their sacred cows such as Freemasonry or Michael Jackson or whatever. I would be surprised if those people’s supposed “concern” about that topic actually extended elsewhere. It would be very simple to set the record straight about all of that if there was clarity, but since that has not happened yet I’m now trying to do it based only on the point of view of my own perceptions.
Also I should note that one of the situations that happened recently seemed to be designed to reference the Pennsylvania situation, which is another reason why I’m mentioning all of this here now.
Once the resolution happens the issue of such sketchy situations will finally be able to be addressed and rectified. In my option I believe that people in the situation have already been helping to clarify such issues for me on my behalf in the meantime, since the positivity of what I have been experiencing has generally always been overwhelming.
I hope all is well ..